What friendship means to me

Friendship to me isn't just about being there when things are good, but also when things are bad. It's putting up with some of their stupid quirks because they put up with yours. It is wanting to see them happy even if it means they walk away from you. Sometimes someone being happy means that you only play a small part in their life.

A cool little auction site

This auction site is actually pretty cool. It's free and a good way to just get rid of stuff you don't want anymore. You earn points and sell in points. It's kind of like a big trading site.

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Job Interview on Tuesday

So I have a job interview and I'm really excited. It's at Toys"R"us, only part time but it's exactly the kind of job I need while in school. It is a group interview so I'm a little nervous but I'm sure I'm going to nail it. Practicing that technique of already picturing you have it so good vibes follow. I want this job so bad.

About Me

You know I've always just assumed if you are reading this blog you know me. That you know where I've been, where I'm at, and where I plan to go. Then it dawned on me that maybe you found this by accident. Or someone linked you to it, that maybe you found it searching for something else. Well then it would seem that this blog is really random. So let me give you a little run down.

The name of the blog, No Ordinary Human, refers to a line in the British show Doctor Who, of which I am a fan. "There is no such thing as an ordinary human" he says in an episode called The Lazarus Experiment. It really it me so I thought I would use a variation of it for my title. We are all unique and contribute something to this world. For some it is something great that changes the world, for others it is something small that changes them and those around them. So I try to remember that. That I'm more then ordinary.

Now with the explanation of my title out of the way I can tell you a little about me personally. I'm 27, be 28 in October. I'm the youngest of four children and the closest in age to me is 14 years older. Two brothers and one sister. I've always been closer to my sister then my brothers. They are all married and have children of their own. Two nieces and five nephews total.

I'm currently enrolled in school at Stevens-Henager College. I'm working on my degree in Graphic Design. I've just started and loving it so far. There is a lot of work but when your working towards something you love it doesn't seem as hard. I've always had a more artistic side even though my drawing skills at times leave something to be desired. Graphic Design isn't all about drawing though so I will find my spot in it I'm sure. My dream job would be working at Wizards of the Coast doing book layouts and such.

I just moved. Well by just I mean about three and half months ago. But it's still pretty fresh here. So with a move comes looking for work. It is proving a little harder then I thought it would. However head up and trying to be positive. It will happen. After all the squeaky wheel gets the grease.

Hobby wise I have quite a few but as of late I have not really partaken in a lot of them. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and G.I. Joe are both something that I've collected since I was a kid. They have become more of just collecting the comics as of late. I'm a nerd. Plain and simple. I also like to write. That has sufferd to as of late. It is something I should try and do way more then I do. I need to make an effort towards it. Readin, loving reading. If I don't have three books going at once I feel I'm falling behind. Like to camp. Haven't been in a while with moving around as much as I have in the last few years. Animals, I think they are great. Playing with the dog we have is a great thing.

And I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints. For those not familiar with that church, well most people refer to us as Mormons. Now I want to clear one thing up, and that is yes we are Christians. The name of our savior is in our church's name, the only way to salvation is through Him. It is because of His atonement we can be saved. Now I'll get off my soap box. We are just as normal as everyone else. There are those out there that say religion is a crutch for those to weak to stand on their own. To them I say, I know that there is a God based on what I've seen. Go stand on top of a mountain and look out across the view below, look under the ocien at all the different aquatic life with their colors and homes, look into space and then look me in the eye and tell me it was all an accident.

Anyway I think that gives you all a little view about me. I hope you learned something. I look forward to posting more in the future and sharing more of my self in each post and thought I put up. I hope you enjoy your time with me.

Alone

So lately I feel alone. Not that I am mind you, I live with my Dad and Step-mom so there is someone always around at home and then when I'm not here I'm at school where there are lots of people. But even with having people around I feel alone. It is something inside. I can't blame others because it's not their fault. The feeling is mine and I'm the one who has to change it. The problem is I don't know how.

I guess the main reason I feel alone at home is because I'm not working. I'm basically existing on the whims and mercies of others. As much as I'd like to have a say and be able to make decisions I have to remember that it is not my place to do so. I guess that is one of the hard things about moving back to live with parents. You have to give up some of those freedoms. It's not bad though, because I don't have to worry about those things it makes it easier on me. Yet at the same time I see how much they weigh on my parents and I want to help shoulder the burden. But how does a child console and give the parent council?

At school I feel alone also. Oh I've meet people and most of them are amazing people, but I only see them briefly. Being in the program I'm in everyone else in class is working towards the same goal. These people will be my competition when I start to look for work. If I get to know them, about them, it will make it that much harder knowing that I'm trying to out do them for a job. Then on the other hand I can't just backdown and let them have things because I feel bad. But the commandment is to love your fellow man, to help your neighbor.

I've started going back to church also. Still there I feel alone too. The boundaries for the Ward I'm in just got changed so everyone is new. I should be on equal footing with them all but it doesn't feel that way. This one is my fault the most and there is no way around it. It is my feeling of inadequacy. I know where those feelings come from and that I should not be paying attention to them but at the same time they are there and when you hear them so often it is hard to tune them out.

Maybe I'm not as happy with my self as I thought I was. When I look at my self in the mirror I see two images. It is like that old Native American story, there are two wolfs fighting over meat but only one will be feed. Which one do you give the meat to? Like I said I know that the only one who can change this is me. I know that in order for me to not feel like this the change has to come from inside. Yet how do you change and not become someone those around you don't know anymore? When you've spent your life putting others first how do you put your self first?

Another Mod down

Well today is the last class of my second Mod. It feels good to be accomplishing this. To finally go back to school and be working on my degree. Now that isn't to say there hasn't been days where I want to throw my hands up and say enough is enough. Heaven knows that this Mod has had enough of those days. But I know when this is all over I'll have the best feeling in the world.

My first two Mod's I only had one class each, this one coming up starting Monday I'll have two. One on campus and one online. The online class has me a little scared but I'm sure I'll do fine. Get my books today and give them a look over the weekend. I'm moving in the right direction. Now to work to get the other things in my life moving in the same direction.

Transformers: Dark of the Moon

Transformers: Dark of the Moon is the third movie in the Transformer series, being such I really didn't expect a lot from it. The last two movies have left a bad taste in a lot of peoples mouths and I was amongst those. Having grown up in the '80s I really wanted to like them. I mean a live action Transformer movie had been something I'd always dreamed of as a little boy. I was there opening day for the first movie ready to be blown away. I left that theater numb. The second one I went to see in IMAX thinking they had to have learned from their mistakes. It seems they had not. I felt cheated and betrayed.

With the third movie I waited awhile to see it. I just didn't have that overwhelming desire to see it. Yet part of me felt I had started this journey so I might as well finish it. So I sucked it up and went to see it. And I must say I was surprised. They actually seemed to be able to pull a decent movie out of it this time. Maybe the backlash from the second hit them hard enough to pay attention or they just figured they had to go out with a bang. Either way they made one hell of a movie.

The actual Transformer characters were actually given personality more so then in the last movies. You kind of got a since that they were more then just machines that were locked in a war. You saw how it affected them, how they felt about being in exile, and how their war affected humans. They began to become more then one dimensional characters. There was still a long way to go to flush them out but it was a start.

The human aspect of the movie too was done well for once. You could actually care about the characters. They were relatable. Sam (Shia Lebeouf) is a college graduate struggling to find his place in the world. Trying to find work, balancing a relationship, and coming to terms with the fact he isn't as important as he thinks he is makes for a great character arch. The other actors do amazing also. This is the first time in this franchise that makes you wish we got to spend a little more time with them.

However it is far from a perfect movie. I would have liked to see the Decepticon's fleshed out a little more. They have suffered a lot in these movies. To see some of their background and why they do what they do would be nice. But for what little screen time they got it was decent.

If you have seen the first two I highly recommend seeing this one. If you haven't seen the first two I still recommend seeing this one. By no means will it win any awards but it is still a fun some movie.

Change in plan

Originally I thought I'd keep this as sort of an online journal, well that doesn't seem to be happening. I just have a hard time putting into words what happened in the day. Besides my days aren't that interesting really. I do pretty much the same thing each day. But I like having a blog I've discovered. It's fun to just get on here and type what I'm thinking about.

So with that I'm just letting everyone know that this wont be a journal anymore and more of just a catch all of thoughts, poems, quotes, stories and the like that I feel like posting. Facebook is great and I enjoy it a lot but I know it annoys me when someone has like 15 updates in one day. This allows me do post as much as I like about whatever I want to, those who want to read it great and those who don't don't have to.

Now that we have cleared up what this will be now we are all good. There should be more posts too now. Anyway thank you for those of you that read my blog. I hope to make it a lot more interesting for you.

Dog Park

Today was fun. I took the dog to the dog park. At first I was going to keep her on her leash but a woman there talked me into letting her run free. Dolly was very well behaved. She played with the other dogs and submitted when she needed to. I think we will go back sometime and let her run. It's good for a growing puppy. Plus it knocks her out at night.

July 6 2011

Today has been an interesting day. Nothing grand happened but sometimes it's the small things that make the day worth it. Something as simple as just listening to music, or talking to a friend you haven't heard from in while can make the day different in an instant.

School was good today. It seemed to go by very quickly. Almost to fast. Covered Excel. The good thing is since we missed a class we don't have to do as much homework. The bad part is, well not a lot of time to cover the material. Got through the homework mostly though.

The rest of the day however well it's mostly been vegging. Tomorrow I start my six page paper. Well start and finish. And it's really only 3 and a half so that should be doable.

July 4 and 5

Well I wrote how I felt about the 4th of July but not about my day. Instead of trying to do a double post I thought I'd just combined the two since really nothing much happened.

The 4th was pretty much just spent with the family. We went for a little drive, at night we watched fire works on the TV. The highlight of my day was getting the next book in the series I'm reading. It was a good day.

The 5th has been even slower. I guess that is what happens though when you have a week off of school and don't have job. Nothing to do the day seems to drag on. Just spent it around the house really. Didn't really have any exciting thing happen. Just typing in this so I can form the habit. Tomorrow I have class. We will be learning about Excel or at least that's what we are supposed to be learning about. I'll let you know tomorrow if that is what we learned.

Also I really need to start working on my APA paper.

What the 4th of July means to me

Seldom do people stop to think about what truly went into making this nation what it is today. We have almost made the Founding Fathers mythical figures and made it to where there was no doubt that they would win. But this isn't the case. They were simply men doing what they thought was right. They knew that what they were doing could cost them and their families their lives if they were caught. They stood to lose everything but gain even more.

To me the 4th of July isn't about fire works or partying. To me it is about remembering the men who stood up to a government and said no more. Who left their homes, their wives, their children and took up arms against a superior army knowing the odds of winning but doing it anyway. Remembering the woman and children who waited for word of their loved ones, the people who watched as everything they ever had was put to the torch.

July 4th to me is a sacred day. A day that celebrates the sacrifice of a people who wanted to make a better world for their prosperity. Average men did something great. And always their eyes were on God. Even in the Declaration of Independence they called on the power of their God. Through these men he wrought a great work.

That's what July 4th means to me.

July 3 2011

Sunday was a good day. It started off good and ended good. There really isn't much I want to say about it other then it was a fantastic day. I don't feel comfortable typing up here for the world to see my experiences of the day or all the feelings I had while I attended church. Like I've said though it was a truly fantastic day.

July 2nd 2011

Well I'm actually writing this on the 3rd because time just seemed to get away from me yesterday. By the time I was remembering to do it I was on my way to sleep. So here it is bright and early today.

It was a good day. Woke up and knowing that I said I'd wash the truck that is the first thing I did. Let me tell you though it took a lot more effort then I thought it would. Then again it doesn't help that it was already climbing up in temperature qt 8:30 am. As fast as I was trying to wash it, it would be drying. Never the less I got it done. Dad was going to take the little car to an actual carwash but I told him I'd wash it too. Much easier to wash as it is much smaller.

The only real downside is that there was a very slight breeze and living in a desert there is dirt and sand in the air. Still a lot cleaner then they were before the wash though. But the heat had taken it's toll on me. I was very tired and not wanting to do much more after that.

Watched some more Dr. Who. Got to an episode where I got to see just how powerful and evil he can be and how he tries to hold it at by constantly. Very good episodes, though I had originally thought it would be an off the wall episode. David Tennent is growing on me as the Doctor, Chris Eccleston is still my favorite. And maybe that's because he was my first Doctor.

Also did some more reading from A Clash of Kings. As I near the end of the books 930 pages it still makes me want to pick up the third volume, which is even longer I hear. I guess one of the things I like is that the books don't really have ends. That each one carries into the next and that things aren't neatly tied up at the end.

So that was my day. Nothing to exciting. Just a normal day of living and loving.

A Song of Ice and Fire

So back in April when I moved to Utah I kept hearing about this book series called A Song of Ice and Fire. It seemed HBO had acquired the rights to make it into a show and that this was a huge deal as the books are really long. I had never heard about this series or knew anything about it up till this point, but the more I looked into them the bigger I found out the following was for it. After talking to a few people I decided to give it a try.

Wow, just wow. The first book A Game of Thrones, also the name the show is going under, was amazing. It is really long yet you never get tired of it and you just want to keep reading. The author did such an amazing job of presenting all the characters in a way that there is no clear cut good and bad. You can see why each character is doing what they do.

The second book, A Clash of Kings, doesn't feel like another book or a sequel but the next chapter. They flow together so well and you continue to see character growth. There is so much going on that you often times have to refer to the appendix to remember who everyone is though and how they fit in. This isn't bad though as it doesn't distract from the story, or at least not for me.

And HBO hit a homerun with the series. All the crucial points were hit in it. I was afraid something would get lost in translation but so far so good. Of course you do lose the motives and thoughts in characters heads so some characters appear more evil, but that is to be expected. I can't wait for season 2.

Over all if you are looking for a book to read or a new show to get into I can't recommend this enough. Sure it wont be for everyone. It is a medieval/fantasy story but very well done. The author has made a series that is gripping and immersive. I don't think you will be disappointed, I know I'm not. I can't wait to go pick up the third book and start it.

July 1st 2011

What to say about today? I mean other then it was very pleasant. Well mostly. Okay it started out pretty bad but it got better.

So I decided I was going to check on my applications I've put in at places today. Of course though since most places don't open tell 10ish I figured 11 would be the best time to go. Out of all the places I went to check I was told either they aren't hiring or the manager would not come talk to me but had associates tell me they are still looking at applications. Finding work is proving much more difficult then I thought it would. But I'll find something eventually. Hopefully it will be sooner then later though.

When I came home my Dad was there. It seems his company is owned by Canadians and as it was a Canadian holiday today they get a four day weekend. Which in turn made for a fun day of just doing random things as a family. We went to the pet store to get the dog some new items. Then we went to the park and just went for a walk and let Dolly run. Chinese food for dinner an then the movie 17 Miracles. Over all just a really good day.

So now I'm sitting here just writing up a quick rundown of the day. There isn't much more to tell about the day. I guess I'll just wrap this up by saying one of the best days I've had in a while.